New poem

I guess i’ll just keep on going
I’ll find a new song every moment
Love has many forms and problems
With me it tends to be always
But I don’t really care
I don’t expect to keep myself
From the change that presses against
All sides of my body and ache.

If I grow colder then so be it
If I grow apart then let the miles start
Sometimes I wonder where it all began
And I don’t know how to trust.

That wont keep me from leaping
Whenever my heart feels bold
It has the soul of an eagle
On the body of a horse
Close, yes, so very close
But still the ground holds
Making death the only hope
And risk seem so secure
While the tape rolls, so does the work
When the end its near, I like to sing
So we'll see what’s in it for me

Last thought

No, I can’t go back
I’m not lost
I never was…

The ones who changed are them
And if they don’t see it it’s a shame
I will never change myself even a bit
To please a false friend in deed.

Why were they scared to tell me?
Because it wasn’t a nice thing?
But it’s better to talk behind someone’s back
It’s nicer to, without explaining, threat them bad…

I believe when people are contradictory
Even in their own minds
Is because they really don’t know anything
And I reflect all that…

I remember Marilyn Monroe saying
“If you can’t handle me at my worst,
Then you sure has hell don’t deserve me at my best”
That quote I will never forget
I will never forget that people lie
I will never forget a double face
Someone who calls himself right
And behaves the other way.
Someone who says to be brave
Suddenly becomes scared
Words are said out of time
And there’s no owning them…

I might not be a lot of things
But I am brave
Surrounded by cowards
That was not the way.

If ever they should this read,
Know that I’ve heard
Each and every one of you
Talk shit of everyone else
When something’s wrong
I’m always the one to go first
Good luck on your way to hell
More than twice I’ve been there
And gotten out all the same…

And I was thinking to myself
That they make mistakes
Doesn’t mean they are bad people
That they don’t keep their word
It’s just that they don’t know
It’s not a conscious work
I will understand, I will understand
It’s not a false hug after a mistreat
We are all in process of learning…
Was I innocent to the point of stupidity?
Or was it naivety?

I still believe they are good people
But they got way too used to pointing fingers
They forgot to look at themselves
No one’s perfect, but them?
Long ago, they stopped making sense…

Now I got the lesson
I’m a tree, not a seed
I’m who I am
Not what they want me to be
I won’t change
I’ll just be
So go away
Go if you please
I don’t need anyone
I’m accepting my being
And I’m not guilty for leaving those
Who don’t appreciate my worth…